via our e-mail loop.. i received the news.. a friend is of stage 2 liver cancer.
just exactly a week ago, i met her after that sweet 16/17 episodes of us.. so many years and years and years ago.
we hugged.. really hugged.. was a really tight hug almost gripping becoming one of two bodies. at that point in time.. i sort off - sense something was really amiss. no words came out.. none utterance what so ever.. none at all. just such a warm nice-to-meet-you eternal loving hug.
i just could not figure it out.
no tears.. no words.. just "i look at you".. "you look at me" and we smile a serenade smile with each other.. a smile right from the bottom of our heart.
i looked closely into her eyes.. she has this serene look.. full of clarity.. of herself and her life.
i really could not figure it out.. what is there she is trying to tell me.. or make me capture.
we just stood there.. hands in hands.. looking at each other.. physical closer inspection.. and just smile.
she looked contented yet something is amiss.
my heart goes for you.. dear friend.
and this.. was written by one of us.. and sent to everybody. it is meant especially for her.. that friend of us.
Syahdu Nya
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